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PDF hiki ke pa\u02bbi \u02bbia<\/em><\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I ko\u02bbu w\u0101 \u02bbelima makahiki, \u02bbo ke k\u012bw\u012b wale n\u014d i loko o ko m\u0101kou hale ma ka lumi moe o ko\u02bbu makuahine ma luna o ke alapi\u02bbi. \u02bbOiai au e n\u0101n\u0101 ana, e ne\u02bbe kokoke mai ana au i mea e piha ai ka pale i ko\u02bbu \u02bbike maka. I kekahi manawa, e kau pono ana au i ko\u02bbu maka i ke aniani a ho\u02bboku\u02bbu i n\u0101 kala e ho\u02bbopiha i ko\u02bbu mau maka \u02bboiai au e \u02bb\u014dwili m\u0101lie ana i ko\u02bbu lae i mua a i hope e \u02bbike i ke \u02bbano pa\u02bba o ko\u02bbu \u02bbili a \u02bbono i ka uila \u02bbawa\u02bbawa i loko o ko\u02bbu mau niho. Ua mana\u02bbo wau i kahi mana\u02bbo hohonu a hypnotic o ka m\u0101lie i k\u0113ia mau manawa, a e piha ko\u02bbu umauma i kahi \u02bbolu\u02bbolu a anuanu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbA\u02bbole hiki ia\u02bbu ke \u02bbike i ia manawa, ak\u0101 ua ulu k\u0113ia mana\u02bbo i ho\u02bbokahi o n\u0101 hi\u02bbohi\u02bbona ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi o ko\u02bbu ola. Ua lilo ia i hoa maika\u02bbi loa no\u02bbu a me ke kumu o ka pu\u02bbuhonua, a hiki i kona ulana \u02bbana i\u0101 ia iho i loko o ko\u02bbu \u02bbano a kokoke e pepehi ia\u02bbu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua ho\u02bbopiha mai ka \u02bbike \u02bbana i n\u0101 pale ia\u02bbu me kahi hau\u02bboli huna i like me a\u02bbu wale n\u014d i \u02bbike, me he mea l\u0101 aia l\u0101kou ma \u02bb\u014d aku a ma waho o ke ao nei\u2014he \u02bbike iki o ke kilokilo. Ua h\u014d\u02bbea mai ka p\u016bnaewele i ko\u02bbu mau makahiki he \u02bbumi, a ua kali koke wau a hiamoe n\u0101 mea a pau i hiki ia\u02bbu ke iho i lalo e p\u0101\u02bbani i n\u0101 p\u0101\u02bbani a n\u0101n\u0101 i n\u0101 wiki\u014d ma ke kamepiula \u02bbohana a hiki i ke kakahiaka nui. Ke kolo hou nei au i ka moena ma mua o ka wana\u02bbao, e ho\u02bbopi\u02bbi au i ka \u02bbeha nui o ka \u02bb\u014dp\u016b i ka w\u0101 i hele mai ai ko\u02bbu makuahine e ho\u02bb\u0101la ia\u02bbu, a ua hala wau i n\u0101 l\u0101 he nui o ke kula a kokoke wau e hana hou i ka papa \u02bbehiku.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I ko\u02bbu w\u0101 \u02bbelemakule, ua lilo ia i mea ma\u02bbamau no ka nalo \u02bbana o ka l\u0101 holo\u02bboko\u02bba i loko o ka pale, me n\u0101 manawa ho\u02bbomaha piha i ka hopohopo no ke a\u02bbo \u02bbana. Ua hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bbopau i n\u0101 papa ma ka ho\u02bbom\u0101kaukau \u02bbana i ka minuke hope loa, e h\u014d\u02bbolu\u02bbolu ana ia\u02bbu iho me ka mana\u02bbo ua \u02bboi aku ko\u02bbu k\u016blana ma mua o ke kula. I kekahi mau manawa o ka \u02bbike pono\u02bb\u012b, ua no\u02bbono\u02bbo wau no ke aha, in\u0101 mana\u02bbo wau ua \u02bboi aku ko\u02bbu k\u016blana ma mua o ke kula, ke koho nei au e ho\u02bbolilo i ko\u02bbu manawa keu \u02bba\u02bbole i n\u0101 hana \u02bboi aku ka maika\u02bbi ak\u0101 i kahi kahawai pau \u02bbole o n\u0101 wiki\u014d a me n\u0101 p\u0101\u02bbani lapuwale. Ua ho\u02bbokuke aku au i k\u0113ia mau mana\u02bbo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He mau makahiki k\u0113ia o ka mehameha a me ke kaumaha. Ua like wau me he mea l\u0101 aia wau ma kekahi \u02bbao\u02bbao o ka puka makani a aia ke ola ma kekahi \u02bbao\u02bbao: \u02bbike \u02bbia, ak\u0101 ma waho o ka hiki \u02bbana aku. \u02bbO ka mana\u02bbo e mana\u02bbo \u02bbia k\u0113ia kekahi o n\u0101 makahiki ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi loa o ko\u02bbu ola ua ho\u02bbopiha ia\u02bbu me ke kaumaha nui. Ua hala ko\u02bbu mau l\u0101 i n\u0101 manawa ma waena o ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i ka uaki ma ka \u02bbao\u02bbao \u02bb\u0101kau o luna o ka\u02bbu pale. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua laki wau i ka \u02bbae \u02bbia \u02bbana i ka\u02bbu koho ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe loa no ke kulanui e a\u02bbo i ka mea a\u02bbu i makemake nui ai, kahi i \u02bbike koke ai au ia\u02bbu iho e ho\u02bbohana nui ana ma mua o ka w\u0101 ma mua. I n\u0101 l\u0101 ma mua o ka\u02bbu puni mua o ka ho\u02bbok\u016bk\u016b hope loa, ua h\u0101\u02bbule wau i loko o kahi pilikia nui kahi i hiamoe \u02bbole ai au no \u02bbekolu p\u014d. Ua h\u014d\u02bbea au i \u02bbeh\u0101 hola lohi a me ka pupule i ka\u02bbu h\u014d\u02bbike hope loa, a laila ua huh\u016b wau i ka w\u0101 i aneane h\u0101\u02bbule ai ka\u02bbu polopeka ia\u02bbu. He aha ka mea nui in\u0101 lohi wau? Ua ho\u02bbom\u0101kaukau wau i kahi h\u014d\u02bbike kupaianaha i k\u0113l\u0101 mau hola \u02bbeh\u0101 hope loa. \u02bbO ka pilikia, i ko\u02bbu mana\u02bbo, ua loa\u02bba i ka\u02bbu kumu ia\u02bbu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbO ka mea p\u014d\u02bbino, \u02bbo wau n\u014d ka mea n\u0101na i ho\u02bbok\u014d ia\u02bbu iho. I n\u0101 makahiki e hiki mai ana, ua ho\u02bbomaka wau e hana i kahi \u02bbano hana kokoke i ka uaki o ka h\u0101\u02bbule \u02bbana i loko o n\u0101 binges ikaika, mau l\u0101 i n\u0101 manawa \u02bbino loa. Ma mua pono o n\u0101 l\u0101 palena ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi, n\u0101 h\u014d\u02bbulu\u02bbulu \u02bbana, a me n\u0101 huaka\u02bbi, e ha\u02bbi wau ia\u02bbu iho e hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bbomaha i ko\u02bbu mau a\u02bbalolo me kahi ho\u02bbomaha p\u014dkole he \u02bbumi mau minuke ma ka p\u016bnaewele. E lilo n\u0101 minuke he \u02bbumi i kanakolu, a e lilo i ho\u02bbokahi hola, a laila \u02bbelua hola, a laila \u02bbeh\u0101, a laila p\u014d a pau. E ho\u02bbopuni wau ia\u02bbu iho i loko o kahi makani \u02bbino o n\u0101 p\u0101\u02bbani, n\u0101 wiki\u014d, n\u0101 h\u014d\u02bbike k\u012bw\u012b, n\u0101 ki\u02bbi\u02bboni\u02bboni, n\u0101 p\u0101pili kaiapili, n\u0101 ponokala, n\u0101 noi\u02bbi p\u016bnaewele, n\u0101 k\u016b\u02bbai \u02bbana, n\u0101 meme, n\u0101 forums, n\u0101 podcasts, n\u0101 \u02bbatikala olakino, n\u0101 n\u016bhou, a me n\u0101 mea \u0101pau a hiki ia\u02bbu ke loa\u02bba. Ke ho\u02bbomaka ka pa\u02bba \u02bbana o kekahi hana ma luna o\u02bbu e emi iho, e ho\u02bbololi wau i kekahi e ho\u02bbomau ia\u02bbu iho. E ha\u02bbi mau wau ia\u02bbu iho e ho\u02bb\u014dki wau ma hope o ke wiki\u014d a\u02bbe, ka \u02bbatikala a\u02bbe, ka p\u0101\u02bbani a\u02bbe, ak\u0101 \u02bboia\u02bbi\u02bbo i k\u0113l\u0101 manawa ua h\u014d\u02bbike \u02bbia kahi hui hou o n\u0101 hiki, no laila he mea k\u016bpono wale n\u014d ke ho\u02bbol\u014d\u02bbihi iki. I ka manawa i lilo ai ka lani i hina hina a ho\u02bbomaka n\u0101 manu e h\u012bmeni, ua nalo wau ma ka\u02bbu kamepiula lawe lima, luhi loa i ka ho\u02bbone\u02bbe \u02bbana i ko\u02bbu mau lima a i \u02bbole e wehe i ko\u02bbu mau maka, e hele ana i loko a i waho o ka \u02bbike \u02bboiai n\u0101 ne\u02bbe hope a me n\u0101 leo e p\u0101\u02bbani ana ma ka\u02bbu pale. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I kekahi mau hola ma hope mai, e ala au i kahi hui ikaika o ka l\u0101 \u02bbino a me ka hilahila hiki \u02bbole ke ho\u02bbomanawanui. Ua noe ko\u02bbu mana\u02bbo a ua make ko\u02bbu mau mana\u02bbo. Ua \u02bbike wau he pono ia\u02bbu e hana maika\u02bbi i k\u0113ia l\u0101\u2014a he nui n\u0101 mea e hana ai. Ak\u0101 ma hope o ka l\u014d\u02bbihi o ka moe \u02bbana i loko o ka \u02bbeha palaualelo, mana\u02bbo wau e k\u014dkua paha ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i ho\u02bbokahi wiki\u014d e ho\u02bb\u0101la ia\u02bbu. No laila e ho\u02bbomaka hou i kahi kahe nui \u02bbole, a hiki i kahi manawa e ho\u02bb\u0101la ai i ko\u02bbu inaina i\u0101 ia iho a me ka maka\u02bbu i kahi haki a hiki ia\u02bbu ke huki ia\u02bbu iho mai ko\u02bbu hiamoe me ka nalu o n\u0101 ho\u02bboweliweli \u02bbino, e koi ana \u02bba\u02bbole loa wau e hana hou i k\u0113ia. I kekahi manawa e hiki ia\u02bbu ke hele i kekahi mau pule me ka \u02bbole o ka h\u0101\u02bbule \u02bbana. E like me ka pinepine, e ho\u02bbi hou wau i ka poina pouli like i loko o kekahi mau l\u0101.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I ko\u02bbu ho\u02bbomaka \u02bbana e ho\u02bbohana, ua like ia me he mea l\u0101 e \u02bb\u014dwili ana au i kahi kapa moe nui a puni ia\u02bbu iho. Ua \u02bbike au i kahi mana\u02bbo h\u014d\u02bbolu\u02bbolu a me ka palekana hiki \u02bbole ke wehewehe \u02bbia, me he mea l\u0101 he keiki wau e pa\u02bba ana i loko o n\u0101 lima o ko\u02bbu makuahine. \u02bbO ka mea a\u02bbu i makemake nui ai, \u02bbo ia ka nalo \u02bbana, e lilo i mea \u02bbike \u02bbole \u02bbia, no ka pau \u02bbana o ka manawa. No kekahi mau hola a i \u02bbole n\u0101 l\u0101, e m\u0101lie ka honua a e mae ko\u02bbu kino, a ua hiki ia\u02bbu ke mana\u02bbo i ka maluhia. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ak\u0101, \u02bba\u02bbole i l\u014d\u02bbihi ko\u02bbu maluhia, a ua ulu nui ka \u02bbeha i loko o\u02bbu. Ua lilo wau i mea hiki a o\u02bbo ho\u02bbi i n\u0101 wahi \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe o ko\u02bbu ola, ak\u0101 ma k\u0113ia kahua ua nalowale m\u0101lie wau i n\u0101 mana \u0101pau. No ke aha e hiki \u02bbole ai ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bb\u014dki i ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i n\u0101 wiki\u014d p\u016bnaewele lapuwale? \u02bbA\u02bbole hiki ia\u02bbu ke wehewehe hou i ka\u02bbu \u02bbano ma ka \u02bb\u014dlelo \u02bbana ua \u02bboi aku wau ma mua o ke kula\u2014ke a\u02bbo nei au i ka mea a\u02bbu i makemake nui ai. Ua lilo ko\u02bbu ho\u02bbopau \u02bbana i\u0101 ia iho i mea pohihihi lapuwale. Ua hilahila loa wau \u02bboiai ka\u02bbu mau ho\u02bboikaika maika\u02bbi loa e k\u016b\u02bb\u0113, ua nalowale ko\u02bbu ola i loko o ka \u02bbole a\u02bbu i lawe ai a puni i loko o ka\u02bbu \u02bbeke.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua hiki ia\u02bbu ke h\u016bn\u0101 pono i ko\u02bbu pilikia a ho\u02bbopa\u02bba i ka hana e lawa ai e ho\u02bbok\u014d ai i ka \u02bboko\u02bba ho\u02bbona\u02bbauao, a i kekahi kauwela ua h\u0101\u02bbawi \u02bbia ia\u02bbu kahi ha\u02bbawina e alualu i kahi papahana k\u016b\u02bboko\u02bba ma ke k\u016blanakauhale nui\u2014he manawa k\u016bpono kupaianaha a\u02bbu i moe\u02bbuhane ai mai ko\u02bbu w\u0101 \u02bb\u014dpiopio. Eia na\u02bbe, i kekahi mau pule i ke kauwela ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu i kahi k\u016blana huikau. E noho ana au ma luna o ka papahele l\u0101\u02bbau pa\u02bba o kahi ke\u02bbena li\u02bbili\u02bbi me n\u0101 lako \u02bbole koe wale n\u014d kahi moena, ho\u02bbokahi pepa i k\u016bpono \u02bbole, a me kahi ea ho\u02bbolu\u02bbu i ho\u02bbohana \u02bbia \u02bba\u02bbole au i ho\u02bbokomo, \u02bboiai ke anuanu wela. Ua ho\u02bbopuehu \u02bbia n\u0101 \u02bbeke hale k\u016b\u02bbai plastik lahilahi a puni ia\u02bbu i piha i n\u0101 pahu hau kalima hakahaka a me n\u0101 \u02bb\u014dpala mea\u02bbai \u02bbino. E noho ana au ma ka paia a\u02bbu i ka\u02bbana like ai me kahi hoalauna n\u0101na i h\u0101\u02bbawi mai ia\u02bbu e ho\u02bbohana i k\u0101 l\u0101kou p\u016bnaewele a hiki i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bbonohonoho \u02bbana i ka\u02bbu lawelawe pono\u02bb\u012b, a ua \u02bbeha ko\u02bbu kino no ka mea ua noho mau wau ma laila no n\u0101 hola he \u02bbumi i hala. K\u016blou wau ma luna o ka\u02bbu kelepona, e n\u0101n\u0101 ana i n\u0101 haneli a me n\u0101 haneli o n\u0101 wiki\u014d \u02bba\u02bbole au i \u02bbike iki he hoihoi a \u02bbolu\u02bbolu paha. I ke kakahiaka nui, ua lanakila \u02bbia e ka \u02bbeha kino a me ka luhi o ka no\u02bbono\u02bbo, ua noi au ia\u02bbu iho i loko o ko\u02bbu po\u02bbo: "E \u02bbolu\u02bbolu e k\u016b. E \u02bbolu\u02bbolu e k\u016b i k\u0113ia manawa. E k\u016b wale." I ko\u02bbu makemake e ho\u02bboikaika ana, ua ne\u02bbe ko\u02bbu mau lima me ke ola pono\u02bb\u012b e kaomi ma ke wiki\u014d a\u02bbe a\u02bbu e n\u0101n\u0101 ana me ke k\u014dkua \u02bbole, me he mea l\u0101 he pio ma hope o ko\u02bbu mau maka. No \u02bbeono a me ka hapa minuke hou aku, e poina ia\u02bbu \u02bba\u02bbole au makemake e hana i k\u0113ia. A laila e p\u0101 mai kekahi nalu o ka luhi a me ka \u02bbeha ia\u02bbu a e ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo wau e h\u014d\u02bboia\u02bbi\u02bbo ia\u02bbu iho e k\u016b, a hiki i ko\u02bbu hemo \u02bbana. Me ka \u02bbole o n\u0101 polopeka a me n\u0101 m\u0101kua, \u02bba\u02bbohe ha\u02bbawina a i \u02bbole n\u0101 l\u0101 palena, ua hohola n\u0101 l\u0101 me ka weliweli i mua o\u02bbu, e ho\u02bbol\u014d\u02bbihi ana i k\u0113ia hi\u02bbohi\u02bbona weliweli me ka palena \u02bbole, i k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia l\u0101, i k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia pule. Ua maka\u02bbu nui wau. Eia kahi manawa k\u016bpono a\u02bbu i moe\u02bbuhane ai i ka hapa nui o ko\u02bbu ola, a ke ho\u02bbolei nei au i n\u0101 mea \u0101pau ma ke \u02bbano lapuwale a ho\u02bboha\u02bbaha\u02bba loa ia\u02bbu i hiki ia\u02bbu ke no\u02bbono\u02bbo. He aha ka hewa ia\u02bbu? No ke aha i hana \u02bbia ai k\u0113ia?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua no\u02bbono\u02bbo wau in\u0101 paha he like k\u0113ia me ka mea a ka po\u02bbe \u02bbona lama i \u02bbike ai i ka w\u0101 e inu ai l\u0101kou i ka wai\u02bbona, a ua ho\u02bbopiha ka mana\u02bbo ia\u02bbu me kahi mana\u02bbolana palupalu\u2014ua lohe au i\u0101 Alcoholics Anonymous, a ua maopopo ia\u02bbu he mau k\u0101naka ma ko\u02bbu k\u016blanakauhale i mana\u02bbo he po\u02bbe \u02bbona p\u016bnaewele l\u0101kou. Ua ho\u02bboholo wau e \u02bbimi i kahi h\u0101l\u0101wai a koi ia\u02bbu iho e hele i kekahi. Ak\u0101 i ko\u02bbu \u02bbimi \u02bbana ma ka p\u016bnaewele, \u02bba\u02bbole wale wau i loa\u02bba i kekahi mea ma ko\u02bbu k\u016blanakauhale, \u02bba\u02bbohe mea a\u02bbu i loa\u02bba ma ko\u02bbu \u02bb\u0101ina, a i \u02bbole ma n\u0101 wahi \u0101pau o ka honua. I k\u0113l\u0101 manawa ua mana\u02bbo wau i ka mana\u02bbolana \u02bbole, huikau, a mehameha. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua l\u014d\u02bbihi ke kauwela, a i n\u0101 l\u0101 hope ma mua o ko\u02bbu ho\u02bbi \u02bbana i ke kula, ua ho\u02bboikaika wau e h\u014d\u02bbulu\u02bbulu i kahi mea e hiki ia\u02bbu ke h\u014d\u02bbike no n\u0101 mahina i hala. Ua loa\u02bba i ka\u02bbu hana ka mahalo, ak\u0101 he lanakila hakahaka ia. \u02bbOiai ko\u02bbu helehelena waho, ua ho\u02bbopilikia \u02bbia au e ka mana\u02bbo e ho\u02bbonele ana au i ko\u02bbu ola a \u02bba\u02bbole e ola i ko\u02bbu hiki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua ho\u02bbi au i ke kulanui a ua ho\u02bbomau \u02bbia kekahi mau makahiki ma hope mai ma ke \u02bbano like, me n\u0101 \u02bbeha, luhi, a me n\u0101 hana huna e ho\u02bbopa\u02bba ana i ko\u02bbu mau pule. Ua ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo au i n\u0101 mea pale, n\u0101 puke k\u014dkua pono\u02bb\u012b, ka ho\u02bboikaika kino, n\u0101 mea ho\u02bbohui, ke kama\u02bbilio pono\u02bb\u012b maika\u02bbi, ke kama\u02bbilio pono\u02bb\u012b maika\u02bbi \u02bbole, ka l\u0101\u02bbau lapa\u02bbau, ka no\u02bbono\u02bbo \u02bbana, a me n\u0101 ho\u02bbol\u0101l\u0101 \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe a pau a\u02bbu i hiki ai ke no\u02bbono\u02bbo e ho\u02bb\u014dki i ka\u02bbu mau hana hana. \u02bbA\u02bbohe mea i hana. Ma hope o ko\u02bbu puka \u02bbana, ua h\u0101\u02bbawi \u02bbia ia\u02bbu kahi ha\u02bbawina \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe i h\u0101\u02bbawi ia\u02bbu i \u02bbekolu mahina e hana k\u016b\u02bboko\u02bba, kahi a\u02bbu i hana iki ai ma mua o ka \u02bb\u014dwili \u02bbana i n\u0101 p\u0101pili kaiapili a heluhelu i n\u0101 n\u016bhou. Ma hope o ka pau \u02bbana o ka\u02bbu k\u0101l\u0101 ha\u02bbawina, ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu kahi hana maika\u02bbi loa a ua ho\u02bboku\u02bbu koke \u02bbia au ma hope o ka h\u014d\u02bbea \u02bbana i ka hana i \u02bbeono hola lohi, ma hope o ko\u02bbu noho \u02bbana a hiki i ka wana\u02bbao o ka p\u014d ma mua o ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i ke k\u012bw\u012b. Ua h\u0101\u02bbule kahi pilina no ka mea \u02bba\u02bbole hiki ia\u02bbu ke h\u0101\u02bbawi i ka manawa k\u016bpono a i \u02bbole ka pilina pili i ka\u02bbu hoa. Ua h\u0101\u02bbule n\u0101 pilina he nui a\u02bbe ma ke \u02bbano like. Ua lilo ka\u02bbu waihona panak\u014d i puka wili a ho\u02bbomaka wau e hiamoe i loko o ka\u02bbu ka\u02bba no ka mea \u02bba\u02bbole hiki ia\u02bbu ke uku i ka ho\u02bbolimalima. Ma waena o ia mea a pau, ua ulu a\u02bbe ka\u02bbu ho\u02bbohana \u02bbana i n\u0101 mea i ho\u02bboponopono \u02bbole \u02bbia a nui loa. Ua ho\u02bbomaka ko\u02bbu mau moe\u02bbuhane e loli ma waena o n\u0101 hihi\u02bbo o ka ha\u02bbalele \u02bbana i n\u0101 makemake \u0101pau e ola i ke koena o ko\u02bbu ola e p\u0101\u02bbani ana i n\u0101 p\u0101\u02bbani a me ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i ke k\u012bw\u012b, a me n\u0101 hi\u02bbohi\u02bbona no\u02bbono\u02bbo o n\u0101 \u02bbano loko \u02bbino a weliweli e hiki ai ia\u02bbu ke lawe i ko\u02bbu ola pono\u02bb\u012b. K\u0101ka\u02bbikahi wau i ka hau\u02bboli i ka ho\u02bbohana \u02bbana. Ua ho\u02bbomaka wau e kaomi i n\u0101 \u02bboi o n\u0101 pahi i ko\u02bbu umauma e ho\u02bbom\u0101lielie i ko\u02bbu hopohopo a e hele i waho i n\u0101 alahaka i waenakonu o ka p\u014d e k\u016b ma ka lihi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I loko o kahi manawa o ka mana\u02bbolana \u02bbole ma hope o kahi binge maika\u02bbi \u02bbole, ua ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo hou wau e \u02bbimi i kahi \u02bbano hui k\u0101ko\u02bbo no ko\u02bbu pilikia. I k\u0113ia manawa ua ku\u02bbia wau i kahi fellowship Twelve-Step no ka ho\u02bbopili p\u0101\u02bbani me n\u0101 h\u0101l\u0101wai kelepona i k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia l\u0101. He mau makahiki i hala aku nei mai ko\u02bbu ho\u02bbomaka \u02bbana e \u02bbimi i kahi hui e like me k\u0113ia, a ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu kahi pane. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ak\u0101 ma hope o ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i ka p\u016bnaewele, ua ho\u02bboholo wau \u02bba\u02bbole ia no\u02bbu. He mea k\u014dkua ka heluhelu \u02bbana e pili ana i kekahi o n\u0101 mea hana a l\u0101kou i ho\u02bbohana ai, ak\u0101 ua kokoke i ho\u02bbokahi pule mai ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dki \u02bbana i ka binging, a ua ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi maoli wau e ho\u02bb\u014dki i k\u0113ia manawa. \u02bbO ka\u02bbu binge hope loa he mea \u02bbeha loa ia a ua ho\u02bboholo pa\u02bba wau e pono ia\u02bbu e ho\u02bb\u014dki i n\u0101 koina \u0101pau. Ua hilina\u02bbi wau ua pau wau i k\u0113ia manawa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I kekahi mau mahina ma hope mai, i ke kakahiaka nui o ko\u02bbu l\u0101 h\u0101nau, ua hiamoe au ma hope o 70 mau hola o ka p\u0101\u02bbani mau \u02bbana. Ua hele au i ko\u02bbu k\u016blanakauhale h\u0101nau no kekahi mau l\u0101 e n\u0101n\u0101 i ka\u02bbu mau waiwai o ko\u02bbu w\u0101 kamali\u02bbi ma mua o ke k\u016b\u02bbai aku \u02bbana o ko\u02bbu makuahine i ko m\u0101kou hale, a ua ho\u02bbol\u0101l\u0101 wau e ho\u02bbolaule\u02bba i ko\u02bbu l\u0101 h\u0101nau me ke koena o ko\u02bbu \u02bbohana i ko\u02bbu w\u0101 ma ke k\u016blanakauhale. I ko\u02bbu ala \u02bbana mai ko\u02bbu pouli \u02bbana, ua hala wau i ka\u02bbu p\u0101\u02bbina l\u0101 h\u0101nau pono\u02bb\u012b a \u02bba\u02bbole i hala he hola ma mua o ko\u02bbu ha\u02bbalele \u02bbana i ke kahua mokulele. Ua piha ka\u02bbu kelepona i n\u0101 kelepona i hala \u02bbole a me ko\u02bbu lumi me n\u0101 pu\u02bbu o n\u0101 mea i ho\u02bbonohonoho \u02bbole \u02bbia. Ua kau mai kahi kaumaha hilahila a me ka maka\u02bbu ma luna o\u02bbu. Ma hope o ka noho \u02bbana no kekahi manawa i loko o ka ma\u02bbi lolo, ua ho\u02bbomaka wau e hele i loko o ko\u02bbu lumi me ka pupule pupule, e ho\u02bbolei ana i ka\u02bbu mau waiwai o ke ola i loko o ka \u02bb\u014dpala me ka n\u0101n\u0101 iki \u02bbana. I n\u0101 minuke hope loa ma mua o ko\u02bbu ha\u02bbalele \u02bbana, ua kukuli au i lalo ma ka papahele o ka lumi a\u02bbu i ulu ai a ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo e \u02bb\u014dlelo aloha. Makemake au e u\u0113 a i \u02bbole e mahalo no ko\u02bbu home kamali\u02bbi, ak\u0101 \u02bba\u02bbohe o\u02bbu mana\u02bbo. Ma hope o kekahi mau minuke hua \u02bbole, ua noho au ma ka\u02bbu p\u0101kaukau, pani i ko\u02bbu mau maka, a ho\u02bbohiki ia\u02bbu iho in\u0101 e p\u0101\u02bbani hou au i kahi p\u0101\u02bbani wiki\u014d \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe e pepehi au ia\u02bbu iho. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I ka p\u014d a\u02bbe, ua k\u0101hea aku au i ka\u02bbu h\u0101l\u0101wai mua no ka hui p\u0101\u02bbani. Ua hewa ka manawa a ua h\u014d\u02bbea mai au i ka w\u0101 e pau ai ka h\u0101l\u0101wai, a ua hopohopo loa wau a ua hawanawana wau. Ua h\u0101\u02bbawi lokomaika\u02bbi mai \u02bbelua mau l\u0101l\u0101 e noho a kama\u02bbilio p\u016b me a\u02bbu, a ua wehewehe hilahila wau i\u0101 l\u0101kou, ma n\u0101 \u02bb\u014dlelo laul\u0101, ua nui loa ka\u02bbu p\u0101\u02bbani \u02bbana. Ma hope o ka ho\u02bbolohe \u02bbana ia\u02bbu me ke aloha, ua ka\u02bbana like l\u0101kou i k\u0101 l\u0101kou mau mo\u02bbolelo pono\u02bb\u012b, paipai mai ia\u02bbu e ho\u02bbi hou mai, a ua mana\u02bbo e hele au i kahi h\u0101l\u0101wai i k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia l\u0101. Ua ho\u02bbolohe au i k\u0101 l\u0101kou mau mana\u02bbo. \u02bbO ka ka\u02bbana like \u02bbana me ka \u02bboia\u02bbi\u02bbo a me ka palupalu me kahi hui o n\u0101 malihini i hele mai mai n\u0101 \u02bbano like \u02bbole o ke ola, ua mana\u02bbo \u02bbia he \u02bbolu\u02bbolu \u02bbole, haunaele, a me ke \u02bbano \u02bb\u0113. Nui n\u014d ho\u02bbi n\u0101 kama\u02bbilio e pili ana i kahi Mana Ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe, ka mea i ho\u02bboluhi ia\u02bbu. Ak\u0101 ma hope o n\u0101 makahiki o ka h\u016bn\u0101 \u02bbana, \u02bbo ka lohe \u02bbana i n\u0101 po\u02bbe \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe e ka\u02bbana like ana i n\u0101 \u02bbike e like me ka\u02bbu iho, ua like ia me ka inu \u02bbana i ka wai ma ka wao nahele, a \u02bbo ka lokomaika\u02bbi, ka \u02bboia\u02bbi\u02bbo, a me ka lokomaika\u02bbi o k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia kanaka i ho\u02bbiho\u02bbi mai ia\u02bbu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbA\u02bbole like me n\u0101 mea \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe a\u02bbu i ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo ai i n\u0101 makahiki he nui, ua h\u014d\u02bboia k\u0113ia mau h\u0101l\u0101wai \u02bbo ia wale n\u014d ka mea i holo pono. \u02bbA\u02bbole au i p\u0101\u02bbani i ho\u02bbokahi p\u0101\u02bbani mai ko\u02bbu h\u0101l\u0101wai mua \u02bbana. \u02bbA\u02bbole i hiki mai ka ha\u02bbalele \u02bbana no ka mea ua ho\u02bboweliweli wau ia\u02bbu iho\u2014ua hana wau i k\u0113l\u0101 ma kekahi \u02bbano a i \u02bbole i ko\u02bbu ola a pau. Ua hiki mai ia no ka mea ua hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bbomaka e kama\u02bbilio pololei me ka po\u02bbe i ho\u02bbomaopopo ia\u02bbu, a ma ke kukui o ko l\u0101kou ho\u02bbomaopopo \u02bbana, h\u0101\u02bbawi mai ia\u02bbu i ke aloha palena \u02bbole.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbOiai he ho\u02bbomaka ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi ka h\u014d\u02bbole \u02bbana i ka p\u0101\u02bbani p\u0101\u02bbani, ua ho\u02bbomau mau ke koena o ka\u02bbu mau hana p\u016bnaewele, a i kekahi mau pule i loko o ko\u02bbu w\u0101 \u02bb\u014dpiopio, ua \u02bbike au ia\u02bbu iho e noho ana i n\u0101 kau l\u014d\u02bbihi o ka n\u0101n\u0101 \u02bbana i n\u0101 wiki\u014d o n\u0101 po\u02bbe \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe<\/em> ke p\u0101\u02bbani nei i n\u0101 p\u0101\u02bbani. Ua \u02bbike au e hele ana au i ka pilikia in\u0101 e ho\u02bbomau wau ma k\u0113l\u0101 ala. Ua launa p\u016b wau me \u02bbelua mau l\u0101l\u0101 \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe e \u02bbimi nei e ho\u02bboponopono i k\u0101 l\u0101kou pilikia p\u016bnaewele a me ka ho\u02bbohana \u02bbenehana, a i Iune o 2017 ua m\u0101lama m\u0101kou i ka h\u0101l\u0101wai mua o ka P\u016bnaewele a me Technology Addicts Anonymous. Ua \u02bbae m\u0101kou i kahi manawa h\u0101l\u0101wai hebedoma a ua mana\u02bbolana wau e ho\u02bbonui koke \u02bbia ke k\u016b\u02bboko\u02bba like i h\u0101\u02bbawi \u02bbia ia\u02bbu mai ka p\u0101\u02bbani \u02bbana i ka\u02bbu mau hana pilikia p\u016bnaewele a me ka \u02bbenehana \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbA\u02bbole i ma\u02bbalahi ke ka\u02bbina hana e like me ka\u02bbu i makemake ai, e \u02bb\u014dlelo iki. No ko\u02bbu mau mahina \u02bbelima mua ma ITAA, ua ho\u02bbi hou wau i ka \u02bbai. Ua like ko\u02bbu noho m\u0101lie me he pali palupalu ma kahi pali mauna hau. E ho\u02bbomaka wau e n\u0101n\u0101 i ka\u02bbu waihona panak\u014d, a ma hope o 16 mau hola e \u02bbike wau ia\u02bbu iho i waenakonu o kahi ho\u02bbi hou \u02bbana e no\u02bbono\u02bbo ana pehea i hana \u02bbia ai. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ak\u0101, \u02bba\u02bbole au i ha\u02bbalele\u2014ua ho\u02bboholo wau e hana i n\u0101 mea \u0101pau e loa\u02bba ai ka ho\u02bb\u014dla. Ua ho\u02bbomaka wau i kahi h\u0101l\u0101wai pule \u02bbelua, ho\u02bbomaka e k\u0101hea mau i n\u0101 l\u0101l\u0101 \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe, heluhelu i n\u0101 palapala mai n\u0101 hui \u02bbo Twelve-Step \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe, a ho\u02bbomaka e m\u0101lama i kahi mo\u02bbolelo manawa o ka\u02bbu ho\u02bbohana p\u016bnaewele a me ka \u02bbenehana. He ninini hanohano ia o ka ho\u02bbola\u02bba. A laila i ka hopena o Nowemapa o ia makahiki, ua ho\u02bboholo wau e n\u0101n\u0101 i kahi ki\u02bbi\u02bboni\u02bboni i kekahi ahiahi a h\u0101\u02bbule i loko o kahi binge \u02bbekolu l\u0101 weliweli \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Me ke aloha, \u02bbo k\u0113ia ka\u02bbu \u02bbai nui hope loa. Ua lawa ka\u02bbu hana w\u0101wae i hiki ai i ka hohonu o k\u0113ia lalo kiko\u02bb\u012b ke ho\u02bbokuke ia\u02bbu i ko\u02bbu w\u0101 mua o ka noho m\u0101lie. I n\u0101 mahina mua o ko\u02bbu k\u016b\u02bboko\u02bba hou, ua hele au i n\u0101 ha\u02bbalele \u02bbana. Ua mana\u02bbo wau he po\u02bbo noe, huh\u016b, ho\u02bbowah\u0101wah\u0101, a me ka mae. Ua piha ko\u02bbu mau lima i ka \u02bbeha i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo \u02bbana e lawelawe i n\u0101 mea, a ua like ko\u02bbu mau w\u0101wae me n\u0101 \u02bbeke one pulu i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo \u02bbana e hele. Ua hiamoe nui wau a \u02bba\u02bbole hiki ke hiamoe iki. Ua ho\u02bbopa\u02bba \u02bbia n\u0101 \u02bb\u0101pana pau \u02bbole o ka luhi hiki \u02bbole ke ho\u02bbomanawanui e n\u0101 \u02bbeha \u02bbeha o ka hau\u02bboli a me ke kaumaha, a me n\u0101 makemake nui e huli i ka\u02bbu \u02bbona. Ua m\u0101kaukau wau e ho\u02bboku\u02bbu ia\u02bbu iho i n\u0101 mea a pau e mana\u02bbo ai no ka\u02bbu mea e hana ai a i \u02bbole e kau i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dla \u02bbana ma mua o n\u0101 mea \u0101pau. I ka w\u0101 \u02bba\u02bbole hiki ia\u02bbu ke h\u014d\u02bbili\u02bbili i ka ikaika e k\u016b i ka l\u0101, ua \u02bbae wau ia\u02bbu iho e moe ma luna o ko\u02bbu wahi moe a u\u0113. I ko\u02bbu \u02bbike \u02bbana i n\u0101 ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe o ka na\u02bbau, ua pale wau i ka ho\u02bbowalewale \u02bbana e ho\u02bb\u014dki i ka hele \u02bbana i n\u0101 h\u0101l\u0101wai. I ka hopena ua hala n\u0101 ha\u02bbalele \u02bbana a ua ho\u02bb\u014dki wau i ka mana\u02bbo mau i n\u0101 makemake e ho\u02bbohana. Ua ho\u02bbomau wau i ko\u02bbu po\u02bbo i lalo a ho\u02bbomau i ka ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo \u02bbana e ho\u02bbonui i ka\u02bbu hana ho\u02bb\u014dla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No kekahi manawa l\u014d\u02bbihi, he mea nui e ho\u02bbololi i ka\u02bbu kelepona akamai no kahi kelepona flip a e wehe i ka\u02bbu pilina p\u016bnaewele home i hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bbopili wale ma ka p\u016bnaewele ke hele au i ka lehulehu. Ua holoi au i ka\u02bbu mau mo\u02bbok\u0101ki p\u0101pili kaiapili a pau a ua ho\u02bb\u014dki i ka heluhelu \u02bbana i n\u0101 n\u016bhou, \u02bba\u02bbole i k\u014dkua i kekahi o ka po\u02bbe a\u02bbu i heluhelu ai. Ua ho\u02bbomaka wau e m\u0101lama i n\u0101 \u02bbano hana \u02bbenehana weliweli a ho\u02bboulu i n\u0101 mea e pale aku ai ma n\u0101 koina \u0101pau. Ua k\u014dkua wau i ka ho\u02bbomaka \u02bbana i n\u0101 h\u0101l\u0101wai hou aku. A \u02bbo ka mea nui loa paha, ua ho\u02bbomaka wau e ho\u02bbomohala i kahi pilina me kahi Mana Ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua maopopo ia\u02bbu ua pili n\u0101 \u02bbanu\u02bbu i kahi Mana Ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe o ko\u02bbu \u02bbike pono\u02bb\u012b<\/em>. \u02bbOiai aia n\u0101 hua\u02bb\u014dlelo ma laila, i loko o ko\u02bbu pu\u02bbuwai ua mana\u02bbo mau wau ua pili k\u0113ia \u02bb\u014dlelo i kahi Mana Ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe o ka \u02bbike o kekahi. Ua hana wau i kahi kanaka mau\u02bbu i loko o ko\u02bbu po\u02bbo no ke \u02bbano o k\u0113l\u0101 Mana Ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe a ua ho\u02bboholo wau \u02bba\u02bbole au makemake e hana me ia. \u02bbA\u02bbole i \u02bb\u014dlelo iki ko\u02bbu mau hoa l\u0101l\u0101 e ho\u02bbon\u0101waliwali ia\u02bbu\u2014ma ke \u02bbano \u02bb\u0113, ua ho\u02bbolohe l\u0101kou ia\u02bbu me ka hoihoi, ke aloha, a me ka \u02bbae \u02bbana. I ka hopena ua \u02bbike wau e hakak\u0101 wale ana wau ia\u02bbu iho. Pono wau e \u02bbae i ka \u02bboia\u02bbi\u02bbo ma\u02bbalahi he ao holo\u02bboko\u02bba o n\u0101 mea i \u02bboi aku ma mua o ko\u02bbu mana a me ko\u02bbu \u02bbike. Ua ho\u02bbomaka m\u0101lie wau e ho\u02bboku\u02bbu i ko\u02bbu pa\u02bba \u02bbana i ka honua, e hilina\u02bbi ana i n\u0101 mea e lawe i ko l\u0101kou ala maoli me ka ho\u02bbolohe \u02bbana me ka na\u02bbau \u0101kea i n\u0101 \u02bbike o ha\u02bbi. I k\u0113ia l\u0101, \u02bbo ka\u02bbu mau hana \u02bbuhane ke kihi o ka\u02bbu papahana ho\u02bb\u014dla holo\u02bboko\u02bba: Pule wau a no\u02bbono\u02bbo i k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia kakahiaka a me ke ahiahi, a ho\u02bboma\u02bbama\u02bba wau i ka h\u0101\u02bbawi pio mau \u02bbana a me ka hilina\u02bbi i kahi mea \u02bboi aku ka nui ma mua o\u02bbu iho \u02bba\u02bbole wau i maopopo piha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I loko o n\u0101 makahiki \u02bbelua e hiki mai ana, ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu kekahi mau pahe\u02bbe. I k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia manawa a\u02bbu i pahe\u02bbe ai, noho wau i lalo a k\u0101kau e pili ana i ka mea i hana \u02bbia, ke kumu a me kahi i ho\u02bbomaka ai, a me n\u0101 ho\u02bbololi e pono ai ia\u02bbu e hana i ka\u02bbu papahana ho\u02bb\u014dla e ne\u02bbe ana i mua. A laila k\u0101hea akula au i n\u0101 l\u0101l\u0101 \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe a kama\u02bbilio p\u016b me l\u0101kou e pili ana i ia mea, e ho\u02bbokomo ana i k\u0101 l\u0101kou mau mana\u02bbo. \u02bbO ka\u02bbu pahe\u02bbe hope loa ma ka hopena o 2019, a ma ka lokomaika\u02bbi o ko\u02bbu Mana Ki\u02bbeki\u02bbe, ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu ka noho m\u0101lie mau mai Ianuali 1, 2020. \u02bbO k\u0113ia pahe\u02bbe hope loa ke kumu no \u02bbekolu mau kia nui hou i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dla \u02bbana. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbO ka mea mua, pono wau e \u02bbae loa i ko\u02bbu mana \u02bbole. \u02bbAne\u02bbane pau n\u0101 hewa a\u02bbu i loa\u02bba ai i ka w\u0101 a\u02bbu i ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo ai e ho\u02bbomaha mai ka papahana. Ma hope o ka \u02bbike \u02bbana i n\u0101 w\u0101 l\u014d\u02bbihi a pa\u02bba o ka noho m\u0101lie me ka \u02bbole o n\u0101 makemake e ho\u02bbohana, ua no\u02bbono\u02bbo mal\u016b wau in\u0101 hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bbi i hope mai ka papahana a ho\u02bbi i ke ola me ka \u02bbole o ka ho\u02bbok\u014d hou \u02bbana o n\u0101 h\u0101l\u0101wai, n\u0101 kelepona, a me ka lawelawe. I loko o ka\u02bbu mau ho\u02bbokolohua a pau i loko o k\u0113l\u0101 mau makahiki \u02bbelua, ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu ka pane i ka\u02bbu n\u012bnau: \u02bba\u02bbole hiki ia\u02bbu ke hele ma mua o \u02bbelua pule mai ka papahana ma mua o ka ho\u02bbi hou \u02bbana. Ua ho\u02bbopa\u02bba \u02bbeha ko\u02bbu hewa hope loa i k\u0113ia \u02bboia\u02bbi\u02bbo ia\u02bbu. E like me n\u0101 haneli haneli o n\u0101 mea kahiko ma AA he mau makahiki he \u02bbumi o ka noho m\u0101lie a ke h\u014d\u02bbike mau nei i n\u0101 h\u0101l\u0101wai i k\u0113l\u0101 me k\u0113ia l\u0101, pono wau e \u02bbae hohonu ua am<\/em> he mea \u02bbona, \u02bba\u02bbohe l\u0101\u02bbau lapa\u02bbau no ka \u02bbona, a e pono ia\u02bbu ka ITAA no ke koena o ko\u02bbu ola. \u02bbA\u02bbole wau he \u02bboko\u02bba i ke k\u0101n\u0101wai\u2014a in\u0101 p\u0113l\u0101 wau, \u02bba\u02bbole au makemake hou e ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo e \u02bbike.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbO ke kia nui \u02bbelua a\u02bbu i ho\u02bbokumu ai i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dla \u02bbana, \u02bbo ia ka loa\u02bba \u02bbana o kahi k\u0101ko\u02bbo a ho\u02bbomaka e hana i n\u0101 \u02bbanu\u02bbu. Ua mana\u02bbo mua au i n\u0101 \u02bbanu\u02bbu ma ke \u02bbano he koho, he kumuwaiwai hou a\u02bbe e hiki ia\u02bbu ke huki i ka w\u0101 a\u02bbu e makemake ai. Ua noi mai kekahi po\u02bbe ia\u02bbu e k\u0101ko\u02bbo i\u0101 l\u0101kou ma muli o ko\u02bbu ho\u02bbomaka \u02bbana o ke akahele, ak\u0101 \u02bba\u02bbohe o\u02bbu k\u0101ko\u02bbo ia\u02bbu iho. Pono hou wau e ho\u02bbolei i ka mana\u02bbo e hiki ia\u02bbu ke lilo i mea \u02bboko\u02bba i ke k\u0101n\u0101wai. Ua loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu kahi k\u0101ko\u02bbo akamai a ma k\u0101 l\u0101kou kuhikuhi ua ho\u02bbomaka wau e hana i n\u0101 \u02bbanu\u02bbu me ka ho\u02bbohana \u02bbana i ka Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. Ma hope o ka n\u0101n\u0101 mua \u02bbana i ke kumu o k\u0101 m\u0101kou papahana me ke k\u0101nalua, ka huh\u016b, ka hopohopo, a me ka hoihoi \u02bbole, mahalo nui wau i ko\u02bbu hiki \u02bbana i kahi i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dla \u02bbana kahi i m\u0101kaukau ai au e hana i n\u0101 \u02bbanu\u02bbu\u2014he pa\u02bbakik\u012b ke wehewehe i ke \u02bbano o ka ho\u02bbololi a me ka hohonu o l\u0101kou no\u02bbu. Ua h\u0101\u02bbawi l\u0101kou i kahi pahu palekana kahi i hiki ai ia\u02bbu ke hana ma o ka nui o ka \u02bbeha a me ka \u02bbeha a\u02bbu i lawe ai i ko\u02bbu ola a pau mai ka hana \u02bbino moekolohe i ka w\u0101 kamali\u02bbi, n\u0101 dinamika \u02bbohana hana \u02bbole, a me kahi kaula o n\u0101 pilina \u02bbawa\u02bbawa. Ua ho\u02bbomaopopo au i ko\u02bbu inaina i\u0101\u02bbu iho ma ke \u02bbano hou a ua hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bboku\u02bbu m\u0101lie i\u0101 ia, me ko\u02bbu makemake e lawe i ko\u02bbu ola pono\u02bb\u012b. He mea nui ka\u02bbu hana ma ka therapy i k\u0113ia ka\u02bbina hana, a ua pono ia\u02bbu e hilina\u02bbi i n\u0101 po\u02bbe loea i a\u02bbo \u02bbia e k\u014dkua ia\u02bbu me ko\u02bbu ho'\u014dla \u02bbana. Pono n\u014d ho\u02bbi au i ke \u02bbano pololei, ka ha\u02bbaha\u02bba, a me ka n\u0101waliwali i h\u0101\u02bbawi \u02bbia e n\u0101 \u02bbanu\u02bbu. He mea ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi l\u0101kou i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dki \u02bbana i ka l\u0101\u02bbau no ka manawa l\u014d\u02bbihi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u02bbO ke kolu o ke kia he ala hou i ke akahele. I kekahi manawa i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dla \u02bbana, ua ho\u02bbokele au i kahi p\u016bnaewele byzantine o n\u0101 laina luna, waena, a me lalo i hele i ho\u02bbokahi haneli mau \u02bbao\u02bbao, me n\u0101 ho\u02bbol\u0101l\u0101 hana, n\u0101 mo\u02bbolelo manawa, a me n\u0101 puke i kaulike \u02bbia ma luna. \u02bbOiai he mea pono loa k\u0113ia mau mea hana i ko\u02bbu ho\u02bb\u014dla \u02bbana, ma hope o ko\u02bbu hewa hope loa ua lawe au i kahi \u02bbano ma\u02bbalahi loa: ho\u02bbohana wale wau i ka \u02bbenehana ke pono ia\u02bbu. Ho\u02bb\u0101\u02bbo wau e m\u0101lama i ka\u02bbu ho\u02bbohana li\u02bbili\u02bbi a me ke kumu, a pale pinepine wau i ka ho\u02bbohana \u02bbana no ka le\u02bbale\u02bba, ka hoihoi, a i \u02bbole e ho\u02bbopau i ko\u02bbu mau mana\u02bbo. In\u0101 \u02bbike wau ia\u02bbu iho e hele hewa ana mai k\u0113ia kumumana\u02bbo, k\u0101hea wau i ka\u02bbu k\u0101ko\u02bbo a kama\u02bbilio e pili ana i ia mea. Ua ho\u02bbonoho k\u0113ia ala ma\u02bbalahi ia\u02bbu i kahi mamao loa mai n\u0101 p\u014dhaku p\u014dhaku o ka ho\u02bbi hou \u02bbana a ma n\u0101 p\u0101p\u016b \u0101kea a \u02bb\u014dwili o ka maluhia. Ua hopohopo wau \u02bbo k\u0113ia ke ala pa\u02bbakik\u012b loa, ak\u0101 ua h\u014d\u02bboia ka \u02bbao\u02bbao \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe i ka nui. I k\u0113ia l\u0101 ke ho\u02bbok\u014d nei au i ka\u02bbu mau pono no ka le\u02bbale\u02bba, ka ho\u02bbomaha, ka hoihoi, a me ka pilina ma n\u0101 \u02bbano \u02bba\u02bbole koi, ma waho p\u016bnaewele. I ke ka\u02bbina hana, ua ulu nui ko\u02bbu ola.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ua l\u014d\u02bbihi loa ka manawa mai ko\u02bbu mana\u02bbo "\u02bbA\u02bbole au e ola nei i ko\u02bbu hiki." I k\u0113ia l\u0101, ke mana\u02bbo nei au ua ola piha wau. Ua ho\u02bbiho\u02bbi \u02bbia a ho\u02bbonui \u02bbia ko\u02bbu hiki ke ho\u02bbolilo i ko\u02bbu manawa e hana ana i n\u0101 makemake ko\u02bbiko\u02bbi e k\u016blike me ko\u02bbu mau waiwai. Ua ho\u02bbomohala wau i n\u0101 pilina waiwai a ho\u02bbok\u014d i hiki ia\u02bbu ke noho a palupalu. Ua h\u0101\u02bbule ka pa\u02bba \u02bbole o ka\u02bbu \u02bboihana a me ke k\u0101l\u0101. Hiki ia\u02bbu ke m\u0101lama i ko\u02bbu kino me ka ho\u02bbomaha k\u016bpono, ka \u02bbai olakino, ka ho\u02bboma\u02bbema\u02bbe maika\u02bbi, a me ka ho\u02bboikaika kino mau. Loa\u02bba ia\u02bbu ke komo i ko\u02bbu mau mana\u02bbo a hiki ia\u02bbu ke mana\u02bbo i ka hau\u02bboli, ka mahalo, a me ka maluhia me ka \u02bbole o ke k\u0101ohi a i \u02bbole ka ho\u02bboka\u02bbawale \u02bbana. Hiki ia\u02bbu ke mana\u02bbo i ke kaumaha, ka maka\u02bbu, a me ka huh\u016b. Ho\u02bbohana pono wau i ka\u02bbu mau mea hana i ka w\u0101 e pono ai, a ma hope iho hiki ia\u02bbu ke ho\u02bb\u014dki. \u02bbA\u02bbole pono wau e h\u016bn\u0101 a wahahe\u02bbe paha, a hiki ia\u02bbu ke m\u0101lama i n\u0101 ho\u02bbohiki a\u02bbu i ho\u02bbonohonoho ai me a\u02bbu iho a me n\u0101 po\u02bbe \u02bb\u0113 a\u02bbe. \u02bbA\u02bbole wau i pau i ka maka\u02bbu, ka ha\u02bbaheo, a i \u02bbole ka hilahila e like me ka\u02bbu i hana ai ma mua. Ak\u0101, \u02bbike wau ia\u02bbu iho e hana ana me ka m\u0101lie a me ka maopopo. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I k\u0113ia mau l\u0101 aku nei, aia wau i loko o ke kai i ka w\u0101 ua m\u0101m\u0101. Ua m\u0101lie a palupalu ka ea, a ua k\u0101nana \u02bbia ka m\u0101lamalama hina mai ka lewa mai. Ua hui p\u016b ka \u02bbono o ka wai pa\u02bbakai a me ka wai ma\u02bbema\u02bbe ma ko\u02bbu alelo, a ua ho\u02bbopiha ka ea anuanu i ko\u02bbu umauma. Ua noho m\u0101lie wau no kekahi manawa l\u014d\u02bbihi, e k\u016b ana i loko o ka wai, i loko o ka \u02bbapo \u02bbana o kahi honua \u0101kea a m\u0101lie i noho mau ma \u02bbane\u02bbi. Ua kali \u02bbo ia ma k\u0113l\u0101 \u02bbao\u02bbao o ka puka makani i ho\u02bboka\u02bbawale ia\u02bbu mai ke ola. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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