{"id":16759,"date":"2023-09-03T14:47:44","date_gmt":"2023-09-03T18:47:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/internetaddictsanonymous.org\/?page_id=16759"},"modified":"2023-09-03T14:47:56","modified_gmt":"2023-09-03T18:47:56","slug":"becoming-fit-to-dream","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/internetaddictsanonymous.org\/tr\/recovery-stories\/becoming-fit-to-dream\/","title":{"rendered":"Hayal Kurmaya Haz\u0131r Olmak"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><a href=\"https:\/\/drive.google.com\/file\/d\/1sa9dBP0TMQeO_q1tzpWsT1CYh99mLj03\/view?usp=sharing\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\"><em>Yazd\u0131r\u0131labilir PDF<\/em><\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">ITAA'ya gelmeden \u00f6nce kendimi bir u\u00e7urumdan d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ve dibinde k\u0131r\u0131k ve yaln\u0131z yat\u0131yormu\u015f gibi hissediyordum. Hissetti\u011fim k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n karanl\u0131k deli\u011finden kendimi \u00e7\u0131karmam\u0131n hi\u00e7bir yolu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yordum. \u0130\u00e7imden bir ses hayatta kalmam\u0131n o u\u00e7uruma t\u0131rman\u0131p kendimi d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7ekmeme ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyordu ama kendi irademle ba\u015flayabilece\u011fime bile inanm\u0131yordum.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bunalm\u0131\u015f ve utanc\u0131mdan yenik d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f bir halde g\u00f6zlerimi saklar, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yana e\u011ferdim. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 ekrandaki hareketli g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcye kilitliyor, kendimi hipnotize ediyor, d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fl\u00fck halimden uzakla\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sabah 4'e kadar s\u00fcren bir yay\u0131n aleminden sonraki gece ITAA'ya geldim. U\u00e7urumun dibindeki o k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 hissederek uyand\u0131m. Depresyondayd\u0131m, endi\u015feliydim, h\u00fcsrana u\u011fram\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ve bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm i\u00e7in \u00e7aresizdim. Kendimi ekrandan \u00e7ekemiyordum ve bu \u015fekilde devam edemezdim. ITAA web sitesini buldum, 10 dakika i\u00e7inde bir toplant\u0131 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ve kat\u0131ld\u0131m.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">O g\u00fcn u\u00e7urumun kenar\u0131ndan iyile\u015fmekte olan insanlar\u0131n y\u00fczleri belirmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Deneyimlerimle \u00f6rt\u00fc\u015fen sesleri dinledim ve yard\u0131m \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131nda bulundum. \u0130pler ortaya \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Tan\u0131d\u0131k olacak insanlar benimle bulu\u015fmak i\u00e7in a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 t\u0131rmand\u0131lar. Biri bana derin bir ba\u011flant\u0131 i\u00e7ece\u011fi verirken, bir di\u011feri yaralar\u0131m\u0131 kontrol etmeme yard\u0131m etti. Bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 beni oturttu ve sonra bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 \"Ayakta durmay\u0131 dene\" dedi.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Shaky but on my own two feet I was able to stand. Those in recovery said, \u201cThere\u2019s a way out of this place in 12 steps. You only need to take them one at a time.\u201d They showed me the ropes and pulley systems. They said, \u201cyou aren\u2019t going to have to climb out alone. Clip into this fellow; they\u2019re a good climber. They know how to use the guide book.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">H\u00e2l\u00e2 beni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7eken bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k hissediyordum. Teknolojinin \u00fczerimi \u00f6rtece\u011fi dissosiyatif durumu arzuluyordum. Zor duygulardan ve y\u00f6netilemez bir hayattan kolay kurtulu\u015fun \u00e7ekim g\u00fcc\u00fc taraf\u0131ndan \u00e7ekildi\u011fimi hissettim. Ben ekran\u0131n hipnotizmas\u0131na kap\u0131lmak isterken, g\u00f6zlerim bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ok daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcme dikmi\u015fti. Bu \u00e7ok \u00f6nemliydi. Bir ad\u0131m att\u0131m. Bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131ya t\u0131rmand\u0131m ve kendimi kald\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken bir \u015fey beni kald\u0131rd\u0131.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bu noktaya kadar, kendimi aya\u011fa kald\u0131rmak i\u00e7in iradeye ihtiyac\u0131m oldu\u011funa inan\u0131yordum, ancak bu inan\u00e7 bir kurguydu. Toplant\u0131lar\u0131m ve dostluk ili\u015fkilerim var. Bir \u0130yile\u015fme program\u0131m var. Ad\u0131mlar\u0131m var. Kendi anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131ma g\u00f6re bir Y\u00fcksek G\u00fc\u00e7 ile ili\u015fkim var. Bir Sponsorum var. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n her yerinde g\u00fcn\u00fcn herhangi bir saatinde arayabilece\u011fim insanlar var. Bu kollar\u0131n ve iplerin t\u00fcm g\u00fcc\u00fc benim i\u00e7in asla tek ba\u015f\u0131ma yapamayaca\u011f\u0131m \u015feyleri yap\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00d6n\u00fcmde hala korkutucu ve karma\u015f\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcnen ad\u0131mlar var. Yine de bu yolculu\u011fun bir noktas\u0131nda bir zindelik deneyimlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Kalp ve zihin zindeli\u011fi; t\u0131rmanmama yard\u0131mc\u0131 olan ruhani bir zindelik. \u00d6n\u00fcmde \u00e7ok az tutunacak yeri olan dik duvarlar var ama fazla uza\u011fa d\u00fc\u015femem. Halat\u0131m karde\u015fli\u011fe s\u0131k\u0131ca ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f durumda.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bu yolculu\u011fa ba\u015flayan ki\u015fi ben de\u011filim. Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7taki k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m beni yard\u0131m istemeye haz\u0131rlad\u0131. ITAA'ya girdi\u011fimde ve s\u00fcrekli olarak yard\u0131m istedi\u011fimde bu yard\u0131m fazlas\u0131yla geldi. Bu destekle i\u015fbirli\u011fi yapmak beni zinde k\u0131ld\u0131. Art\u0131k hayal kurmaya haz\u0131r\u0131m.<\/p>\n<!-- PMB print buttons is only displayed on a single post\/page URLs-->","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Printable PDF Before I came into ITAA I felt like I had fallen from a cliff, and was lying broken and alone at the bottom. I believed there was no way I would ever pull myself out of the dark hole of brokenness I felt. 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